all that fuss about my mental image of her. My jottings show something of the process, but not so much as I’d hoped. Perhaps both changes were really not observable. There was no sudden, striking, and emotional transition. Like the warming of a room or the coming of daylight. When you first notice them they have already been going on for some time. The notes have been about myself, and about H., and about God. In that order. The order and the proportions exactly what they ought not to have been.
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